Birds still sing the same song – everyday – at the same time.
I wonder if they even miss us?
– Suri
What are Quarantine Musings? Just some random, trivial, light-hearted (or maybe even deep?) thoughts that pass through my mind during these lockdown days.
I step outside
Soak in the afternoon sun
Call out your name
You turn to look
And then start running to me
I hold you tight
Cry my heart out in your fur
Hug you and share with you
All the stories and the hurt
You are attentive
You understand my pain
You listen to me, as always
The terrible things I tell you about
The weird thoughts that I carry around
The fights, the misunderstandings,
The fears, the anguish
I tell you all, but you judge me not
You silently wink that it’ll be alright
As I weep softly with dry tears on my face
We both lay down on the floor,
You on your tummy, me on my back
But huddled together like there’s no room
You were, are and always will be
The best support system of my life.
Yes, it’s been years since we last met,
It’s been some years since you left the planet
But I hope you’re happy, wherever you are
I hope you have a big and wide open ground there
And nobody to stop you, from running around
Because, wasn’t that always your dream?
To run, run, eat and run?
You showed me, no matter what happens
We should never stop running
Feel the pain and double the pace
You were magic, the brightest light in my life
I miss you, but wait, don’t you worry
For I’ll always remember the good old days
To inspire me to run again
And not lay gasping for your presence
For it will only weaken my soul
I’ll run again, I’ll live your dream
And thus I’ll make it up to you
To the days that we’ve lost
To the times that we could have met, but didn’t.
I love you, Sweety.
Note: Here’s another poem dedicated to my dog, Sweety who passed away around 5 years ago.
– Suri
I want you to sit besides me today.
I want you to pat my back and tell me to get up, to dust off the sorrow, to make way for light.
I want it to be like it was, in those days, just you and me, together forever. But of course, forever is a lie.
I want to tell you all those stories that you’ve missed out on.
I want to share with you anything and everything.
I want to relive the past with you.
I want to see you, to touch you, to feel your body rub against mine.
I want to play with you again, like we did then. Then. It feels so long and gone now.
Perhaps, now should’ve been a beginning to a new life, a new era. But I just can’t feel it.
All I want is to feel comforted by your presence. I want to wrap myself up in your fur once again.
I’ve always resented change and you know it so well. I can’t handle change. And the change wasn’t even normal. It was large. It was EXTRAVAGANT!!
Yes, it was my fault to not be by your side when you needed me the most. But baby, I’m sorry, can you forgive me for that? It’s too much to ask for, but I know that you’ve got a very big heart. An heart unlike mine. So much unlike mine, my dear.
I want to see you again…..
– Suri
Note: This piece of writing is about my dog who passed away a few years back.
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